What do I do when someone asks me
"are you ok?"

Do I tell them
I got a million miles closer to something
to which I had to stay away

Do I tell them my supposed "mentor"
Is now the source of my pain
And I could look in his eyes
Without seeing him
And see
He almost cared

Do I tell them that my father might be right
that I might be bipolar?

Do I tell them everything I've worked for
Behind their backs
Might have killed me in a second

If I looked back at at the trail of blood
That I left behind

Was there really a chance where I could have told them
*if I tried