I feel selfish as I miss you,
I was just a stranger made family due to life’s twist and turns
I was there at the beginning of it all, your happiness
I was there at the end of it all, your life
I feel selfish as I miss you,
In those sudden moments in which I wish I could give you a random call, hear your voice
Even though we often spoke, those little conversations were precious and held me strong
My partner in crime in the in-laws’
My circumstantial sister
I’m still learning to learn that you are gone, never to return
I feel selfish as I miss you, thinking of all the things that were left to do
Feel guilty of my thoughts, crawling little critters that do not allow me to move on
Memories that invade the heads, zigzagging in my brain
In quiet nights,
Bringing the good and the bad
The joys and the pain
….they fail to bring you!!!
I feel guilty when she misses you, and I can’t articulate the right things to say
Build the words that will console her…deep inside, I also do not understand
What’s there to do, as we sink in pain?
Learning to continue living as some of us pass,
Writing empty letters
Saying empty words
In an effort to heal.