Once to often

Once to often
I've reached deep
into the depths of my soul
Trying to bring just one more insight to life
My fingers in desperation
Scraping the baron walls of the abyss,
Faded sunshines
Ashen landscapes
muted birds and arid beaches
Transparent memories
Once a raging waterfall
Purging rays of hope , recollections of sadness
Invitations to natures galas
Strolls under the moonlight
Now but An empty map
or a baron blackboard
and no place to dip my quill
Once to often
I've reached into my soul
Trying to drink from the chalice
Of odes
Tasting only the cold walls
And dryness
Not even a drop
I pray for the rain
I pray for a reason
I pray for her return
Her seed
For without my words
To bathe the wounds
On a heart filled with scars
I'm simply
Done .............