I never go back
I never re travel the lines pored
In penmanship
Although pressed between the pages of a journal
As if thrown off into a weightless universe
The basic laws of motion apply
So with every recollection
A piece of me leaves forever
I wonder when she reads
Does she know ?
I never go back
Those once traveled roads
Moments lived only in my mind
Or a blueprint for a future dream
A love letter
Intended for only one heart.
I watch the binder fatten
With each new page digested
Penned with the same inspiration
As the very first  
a simple ode
Created to express a feeling
Mere words could not.
Dipped in the oxygen enriched
Blood flow
Straight from my heart.
That belongs to her
I never go back
I never re read the waves of emotion I've flooded her with
Only to wonder if she felt me
I don't wanna see my heart dwindle
In pieces, sprawled away
Or tucked in a corner
I wonder if she values the snippets of my life
Devoted , to sharing my affection for her
I left them with her
I look at my journal
The words are there , but the spirt is let go
Along with the piece if my heart that I wrapped it in
That's is why
I never go back ....