I read your poem almost every night with the tears that dormented themselves for years and years. I hate sometimes that I miss you so but you were my first love and my best friend. I detest the circumstances we have in our lives. I can't take the empty spaces where you should be in my heart, the place you left so long ago. And I don't know why I'm not satisfied with your answers, with you telling me we're friends again. Maybe I'm just paranoid that you'll leave again and that scares the hell out of me. Please stay for good this time. No matter the distance because one day we'll have our moments again. I just know it.
This is train of thought and messy but I can't help but write tonight. I'm waiting for an email or a letter from you after I wrote you one spilling out my fears, so irrational yet they still exist. Maybe I'm desperate for a friend, maybe something more that I know will never happen again. But at least I can be hopeful, right?