I walk to the door the one with the exit sign. I followed the cord for all my life. It leads to this It leads to Christ.. I don't know I don't know why. What's behind is ashes and dark nights. This is the only thing I have in this life. What means so much is cracking breaking I'm loosing myself. I hold the **** like it was one of my hands. There's a light on the other side it's like I can ..I can feel it. I saw my own body decaying infront of me, There's a time to die but after I pray that what I did hear was for a greater something... We live by not living, we die but were not even trying.