Every once in a while
I get this feeling
Like there's a tiger
In my chest
Clawing at my
Abdomen
Rib cages
Solar plexus
So abrasive
And it demands attention

It's like I stumbled into it
this flow
Climbing onto a roller coaster
Blind
Only noticing when you're
Upside down
That there is something calling
To set off
A bomb dying to drop

Ease is what to seek
And I search for
The closest good feeling....

It doesn't come to me

Searching relentlessly
I look at my thoughts
And nothing major
Seems to arise
Just a feeling that something
Inside of me is half alive

The pain lifts me a couple
Of inches above the ground
Frazzled by the electric currents
Pumping around

The ego waits for the shadow
To resolve this mess
Knowing the only solution
Is a break down moment
Where supposed behavior
Falls high from its tower
And crashes everything
I subconsciously strive
To prevent
This out of the vortex
Release
To give in to instinct

And in that action
I find what I need
The old cat is silenced
For the time being