you know I can't do it:
can't ever let you go;
i can't stand the thought of losing you,
losing you for real;
can't ever be enough for you,
no matter how hard i try;
can't ever be just the shape you like,
even if i starve for days;
can't ever hate you,
no hurt, nor abandonment, nor insult could do it.
i can't, i won't;
i couldn't, i wouldn't.
because we both know i need you more than air, my dearest. ~cp