Resisting the urge to yell,
Resisting the urge to scream,
Resisting the urge to tell
I’m breaking at the seam.

Every breath is deep,
Every thought a command,
Every step a leap,
They wouldn't understand.

The shadows always follow,
The voices never stop,
The nonstop feeling hollow
That has me teeter from the top.

Pain that blocks my throat,
Pain that fills my soul,
Pain that seems to gloat,
Has begun to take its toll.

I don’t know where to go,
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t think they should know
That these feelings are not new.

I pray for strength and mercy,
I pray for burdens lifted,
I pray for hope so I can see
The plan that He has gifted.

I feel like I am drowning,
I feel like I am burning,
I feel like I am dying,
And the world is quickly turning.

I wonder if they felt like this,
I wonder what they’d say,
I wonder if they’d notice
If I wasn't there one day.

It’s not that I don’t feel loved,
It’s not that I don’t see,
It’s just that I don’t feel enough
Like I’ll never be quite worthy.