you smelled like strawberry candy
(which was weird because you
didn't eat candy).
the minute I saw you I fell
for you but I didn't realize it until
months later when I
was crying into your shoulder
and I needed you to hold me
or else I would slip and fall.

and then I fell anyway,
but instead of falling away,
I fell for you.
I cried and told you that
I was scared,
I was so scared.
and you said that everything would
be ok, and you wouldn't leave me-
when things were bad, or things were good,
you would stay.

I was never sure that I
wanted you to stay until
I brought you to my favorite
place, and realized
that it wasn't my favorite place
anymore, it felt so wrong,
because you were my favorite
place, and I don't know
what I would do if I
didn't have you by my side.

Every time my eyes shut,
I hugged my arms close to my body,
trying to pretend I didn't see the end,
everything wrong,
and my worst nightmares.
you pressed a hand to my neck and
promised me
that it was just in my head,
and you begged me to open my eyes,
and see the truth.
so when I finally looked up,
I saw the truth-
I saw you.