my father told me that i looked like a mental institution with sleep and sea-salt in my hair sipping strawberry lemonade in the backyard high on insulin your tongue is wry like chalk when you swallow sad boy symphonies stumbling in your own vision of paradise cooking up a dream with your head inside your heart they heard what you said, once the herd was gone i'm the only one who reminds you of lost days you said that this was what you liked about me most lost cause-poetry don't blow up my garden you can't even make it snow in july