stuck in the troubled position of deserving you and deserving to be alone

i often placed my head on my pillow as it whispered reassurance for the hope i'll always have into my left ear
and i often sacrifice a full night's sleep for a continuous daydream of you

but that was before i realized that we were built out of paper patience and cardboard perseverance
it only took a liter of lies and a spark of convincing
that burnt us to the creaky floor of something i knew was going to happen
but never wanted it to
our love was the catalyst for brokenness after all


i just never thought it would be something we said would never do

said i would never do

that did just that