I can try my hardest
but it'll never be
it's time to accept
that this is me.

I'll never be the girl with perfect makeup and hair
who's tiny and cute
and fun to snuggle
I'll never have a flat tummy
with a sweet smile
and sparkling eyes.
My slender face and figure
won't occupy your mind.

I'm not a party girl
no drugs or drink for me,
a good book
and quiet movie
are all I really need.

My laugh isn't girly and cute
my clothes are less than flattering.
I'm awkward in public
and even alone.
disorders prevent me
from doing what you could.
I'm not fun to hang out with
and I'm scared of everything.
My interests are abstract
and my mannerisms embarrassing.
I'm the girl no one talks to
or invites places.
and you have to look quite hard
because it seems I'm not even here.

But I will tell you this.
I'll love you with all my being
and trust my life in yours
I'm insecure
but I'll never take you for granted.
Never speak a word behind your back
be honest and kind-
and some nights I'll cry
because I'll always believe
that you deserve better than this.
better than Fish.

I'm not rare
not special.
not pretty or funny or clever.
I'm really nothing at all.
But I'll always be here.
no matter what you do
I'll sacrifice life and limb
charge a raging battle
do most anything it requires
if I can bring happiness to you.