rainy afternoons
empty hearts
where are you?
i grab a fistful of sand and watch it as it slips away through the spaces between my fingers
the spaces where your fingers should be
it seems like yesterday you were here with me
i wish you were here
i wish i could tell you everything that roams through my mind
do you ever wonder what i'm doing?
[please tell me you do]
do you ever wonder if i still love you?
i wish you were still beside me
what i'd do to watch you fall asleep beside me
oh what i'd do to have you back
all i have left is an ashtray of feelings
cigarette buds that spell out your name
poisoned lungs
im left alone with my thoughts
If only, if only, if only, if only
its driving me insane
darling, my nail beds are raw from all the biting
my wrists are sore from all this writing
*my ribs are bruised from all this heart ache