for three days my body wouldn't let me wake this early. (even i wouldn't let myself wake this early) i couldn't face another day without knowing where, how, you were. now, i suppose i can thank the knowledge of knowing you are safe, and doing decent, for allowing me to want to stand up to reality. that the day my mother ****** us didn't make you do anything irrational. and every dandelion and 11:11 i will continue to wish the sun watch over you, and moon protect you, for me. my dear, the war inside myself is finally at peace.