I became aware of my emotions today,
but it only made me sad.
To think these emotions will never go to bed

I choose this path of awareness
because I felt I could be better.
To think this way makes the wounds fester.

I check myself to be better.
But I feel the pain, sharp and not so subtle
Coercing the pain to subside puts me in more trouble. .

I know I can be better
but fighting the inevitable is not enough.
to do this alone makes this journey extremely tough.

I have a choice that I thought wasn't mine,
but that choice may turn out just fine.
to think too much is a choice always escapes my mind.

Perhaps mind control will turn out just fine.