As a teenager she wondered what happened
where did the connection go?
why did it disappear the way it did.
just faded, without a cause or known reason
if the reason was known, would it be valid?
"mother? mother?"  she called,
hoping for a response.
but she never got one.
she always said "it's okay, she'll call back later."
but not knowing if she would.
Would she reach out to me in the future?
will the connection ever come back.
or is this what it will be.
Sometimes, i wonder.
and it can surely take over my mood.