my destiny,
is suffering from,
looking....into my history.

my life...
a time warp,
gone all,wrong.

i was meant
for happiness.
not this feeling
...of being out of place.
this is just wrong!!!!

i watch with,
sadness and much fear,
the young man,
unravelling,
so very publicly,
over in the corner,
proclaim, this mantra.
all the while waving,
around, erratically,
the steel barrel.
of his new best friend....
the loaded gun.

i was never loved,
never strong,
all was an afterthought,
i don't belong...

i tried so many times
and failed....

and failed so many times
to try...

see even now, i fail to die...

or even ****.

i want,
a better destiny
than this
than standing,
demanding
my hurt be heard...

hoping i will be missed.
i know i won't...no one cares

i will be,
just one more soundbyte,
on tonites news...
and that is only if i ****
all of you....

then the history,
of my suffering.
will be blamed
for my destiny....

as you all,
try to figure out
where it all... went wrong.