I'm going to need a pill for all this...
To numb me.
To bring me forgetful patience
and  delicate bravery.

This up and down
In and out
Round and round....silly caged clown.

I'm going to need a pill for all this...
"As if" acting and sad smiling and normal-ness?
For-if I don't swallow that pill
I will sink into the abyss.

And now steaming with
four hours past, I think at last I have it
The raging energy and adreline laced anger to let it go but
I reach for the bottle and swallow the pill, whole.