You think you know me Think I'm the joker of the pack, Reading me isn't easy, Many faces do I put up To hide the many cracks that rise, But I hide behind laughter, anger just below I have to keep control. Never to lose an inch, never to explode, I am a puddle, calm on the surface But turbulent under that, I am a shallow lake But all you see is a refection Not really seeing what stirs beneath that, Do not Judge, Presume. Think you know my troubles That lie just beneath the cracks, Controlling, Restraining, Deep breaths, Holding the tears back, I wish to put it behind me But times it runs, comes from behind, Hitting me hard in the back. Winding my emotions Tears and rage flow Uncontrolled Alone Fear Anger Take control You stole a part of me Something that even with time I can never get back.