Submission,
indoctrinated
I fall, hitting the floor,
as
words,
penetrate,
skull filled with misled,
judged,
barely touched
understanding
and, found, I
look to the moon,
low in skies,
where there are stars fighting for space,
and I stopped,
the game of finding and seeking room
in the iced blocked heart of your own ruin.
Tumble,
fumble
you loved,
me; you said; I love you
yet, you, only you,
denies the soul, heart, craved for, starved for, undenied
love; waiting its turn,
wait wait wait,
tell me will,
it ever truly be over, as the duality across sobriety,
serenity in acceptance, courage,
will you change?
No choice to whom we love, a choice only,
in allowing, love to
filter,
filter,
dissipate through,
dumb, inane, insane, sorrow struck, distrust, unrest
sober drunk, gone, lost, amidst
untold secrets, forming in patterns allowing choices, unknown
alive with love,
inside the agony grows,
groans and aches,
unable to release, free love, the one you, so
undeniably,
want.
© Sia Jane