It was six AM and it was one AM We spoke in silence and whispers from the sheets She told me she felt disgusting I held my gut and buried my head Oceans... She called before and I slept poorly a thousand iterations of her voice That swarmed my painfully ****** mind Oceans between us... I mentioned puzzle pieces and alluded to something like a movie She questioned my rambling and I closed my eyes, listened to the fireworks She met other boys ghosts in the bad dreams haunting Memories of Jordan memories of Jorie memories of Mimi, Annie and the rest More oceans between us
I feel so disconnected
I wished I was dead so I couldn't hear her again but I've wished this before and nothing Maybe her eyes could pierce my heart but her eyes wander, and I wonder where she is She's sounding scared I'm apathetic by nature, I wish I could wish I wasn't Are you blinded by the dangerous because I am too Are you flailing listlessly into existence because I understand Are you feeling better because I want that
are you because I am
It's a recurring scene the unavailable, the broken and the best I'm drifting away and it's a world in that ocean You're with me today in hazy faded memories and I laugh when I think of your laugh
I really shouldn't fall in love with somebody who can't love me back because... It's so far to Missouri and flights are expensive So I'll sit in my sadness and dream of you