Jun 2014
Something dark crawls within me,
I loosen my hold on to sanity and relent,
Something cloaked in ravagery is of age,
….I’m so ******* tired.
He cheated. Took a chance with my life. Yelled and blamed me.
In the morning, I was so ******* strong that I’m deluded and I think I actually love this extremely imperfect man. This horrible, despicable, *******! I loved you hard, I held on when no one was in your corner, you screamed help and I ran! I’m deeply in love with someone I’ve never gotten to physically meet and I don’t think I’ll ever love this man the same way. Ever! Why am I still here and not traveling towards this person who means so much more to me. What is it 5-6 months compared to 6-7 years. Wow.I’m blind! Hurt, dumb, and stupid.
I loosen my hold on to sanity and relent,
Something cloaked in ravagery is of age,
….I’m so ******* tired.
He cheated. Took a chance with my life. Yelled and blamed me.
In the morning, I was so ******* strong that I’m deluded and I think I actually love this extremely imperfect man. This horrible, despicable, *******! I loved you hard, I held on when no one was in your corner, you screamed help and I ran! I’m deeply in love with someone I’ve never gotten to physically meet and I don’t think I’ll ever love this man the same way. Ever! Why am I still here and not traveling towards this person who means so much more to me. What is it 5-6 months compared to 6-7 years. Wow.I’m blind! Hurt, dumb, and stupid.
