I'm not really myself right now.
And anybody I'm close to at this moment needs to understand that.
I will change.
Not quite into who I once was.
That girl is gone.
But I will definitely not stay unknowing forever.
I don't like the version of myself I have found now.
I don't like having to survive on self destruction.
I'm sorry for that.
I want to change.
I just don't know how to right now..