Dear __,

I'm sorry
Its not your fault
that I feel the way I do
I'm sorry
that things can't be different
I'm sorry for pushing you away
That is the my way of coping
Its not what I want
I want you

I know you have
your own way of coping
I don't fault you for it
even though it hurts
I'm sorry for trying
to find reasons to hate you
That too is a coping mechanism
Its easier not to love someone
when you hate them

You're not a bad person
You're a wonderful person
With a kind heart
and room for the whole world inside of it
I hope you save the world
You will save the world
You saved me
You're the beacon
that reminds me
There is still something
beautiful that remains
beyond the chaos

Thank you
Thank you for showing
me how to feel again
Something
Anything
I don't care
I'm just happy
to be alive and
feeling something