sometimes
you swear you can feel his breath
against the back of your neck
and it drives you insane.
sometimes,
you think you're done dreaming
about him but you see him there,
back against your headboard
and it starts back again.
you bury yourself in men
who have the same colored eyes as him
and you drink shot after shot
in hopes of forgetting his name.
we both know you will end up
forgetting your own first.