up in the sky
like a distant bird
up so high
so unheard
the clouds pass by
one by one
I'm high oh so high in the sky

I lose my breath                                  
I lose my air
insufficient oxygen
in my lungs

I am binded to the solid ground
trapping me to an endless void

the smoke rises
carelessly coating my lungs
swiftly shattering my nerves
immediately swallowing my thoughts

I abandon myself
I breathe it in
silently it intoxicates me

its power has no limits
it is beyond my comprehension

however
my heart struggles
it is damaging my soul
but I am helpless
my conscience is locked into my mind
the keys have gone
the lonely stars are my only onlookers
i help myself in this infinite emptiness
starlight pierces into my dark perplexed eyes
smoke still blinding my senses

I wish to see the glimmer of the stars
not the blinding light
I have consciously made them become  
I want to see the world
I want to breathe
I want to be free
for the smoke to lift
for everything to return to focus