All or nothing I've reached this crossroad Before this, I've been hiding in fiction In every word I've read and wrote
I'm stepping up to the plate Because I can't stop the world How much do I want to live? How hard am I willing to battle?
Can I count on you To lead my through this Wonderland? If I take the easy route Would you still hold my hand?
The road I walk on now Is shrouded with hate and shame And I'll have to fight impulses As I'm inclined to stay the same
Because the future's in my palms And I'll meet a dead end If I keep up this way And don't stop this trend
Standing at this pivot point Preparing for what comes next Since the hardest part of getting better Is taking the first step
Things have been crazy recently. I've started talking to adults about my emotionally abusive mother and my dad's been talking about moving in with him or someone else and getting help and also I have a huge other world of problems like my suicidal ideation and my eating disorder and I feel like getting help and facing my problems is impossible and yet it's so close.