my mother is losing her words
or at least, misplacing them
(there may well be,a great pile of them, lying around
lauguishing, somewhere)
her mind is slipping,
on it's weary and
hard-work-worn cogs.
she sometimes has difficulty,
grasping new concepts,
or attatching two thoughts,
coherently together.
and sometimes the blankness behind her eyes
reaches the horizon and beyond.
(and scares the very dickens out of me)
we have lots more, doovers
and thingies and whatsits,
in the house...
and usage of these and other,
all purpose words,
that lead to subtle guessing games,
has increased manifold,
creating conversations,
that drift, into the territories of
"remember the kid with the
doover thingies,
red....on his head.... on his head" !!!
(the boy with the beautiful
red curls and corksrew ringlets)
perhaps having been,
away and now returned....
i see this more clearly.... whereas, whilst, living
with it daily.
....you just compensate ... and move on.
my brothers do not want to know this.... and nor does she want them to....
they,
have busy lives.....
(note the irony lost and languishing here)
i am concerned,
and speak to both her doctor and the bluecare nurse,
who comes to help with her abulutions and dresses the abrasions from her latest fall.
they say things like,
she is, within the healthy range for her age, 85.
however, there is marked
depreceation in certain areas.....
we need to keep an eye on her...
( and i am reminded of my old combi, sad but true)
in the meantime...
mother, no longer does the cryptic crossword, citing it as mere balderdash(these days)
and we often find the daily
incomplete...
this is tough.... my mother
so quick of wit.....my mother
so clever in turning a phrase
...... this is tough
not alzhiemers...or dementia..
perhaps aphasia... and small
strokes.... watch and see.
we, at the start of the year
moved her into a granny flat
behind our house....she is close enough to keep an eye on.... but still able to mantain her independance...
which is of tantemount importance to her.