You are loud And you are drunk And I turn up my music Try to mask the shrillness of your laughter The bus is dark And it is late And I sit in my usual bubble of stillness As if I am alone. I hate that I can hear you. Takes me out of my head And into your world Where I've got no power. I sit and gaze out the tinted window at the streetlights And a car passes- whoosh Sudden like a knife Its sharp slice of color through the blackness Stirs my blood And I check my thoughts You are still So ******* loud And so ******* empty Here Take some of this And burn with it. See if you laugh then. But I say nothing to you. That is your place And this Is mine. My heel connects with the grungy floor And strikes a spark Bang Like a gun. Bang And flames lick the soft rubber of my boot It smells like a car wreck. I look away Disinterested And wherever I flick my gaze Embers flare. Fire races down the walkway towards the back window Orange and Breathlessly fast. Long shadows dance on the walls Glint off the windows And throw your faces into sharp relief Now you look Like laughing corpses Skeletal and distorted in firelight. I like you better this way. My coat catches And I feel the heat as The flames from the floor Lap at my fingers Like whining dogs And I feel them blister But they remain smooth and white. I flex them, testing their new hardness They are bone white Bone hard And they clink together And the flames Do not matter. You are still loud And drunk And laughing And you have no idea Who you're sitting across from.