I am turning into him.
Not asking yes but just
taking and wanting and
needing
without wondering if
you even said yes.

I should stop because
I care about you so much.
And I don't think that I've ever
loved anybody as much as I
love you...

But it would seem that I am
becoming just like him and
what will stop me?
I am nothing special,
I cannot see why you think
I am worth anything but
you do and I guess that is nice
but I guess I never really thought of
myself as special or the things we do
as special because I'm not special.

You are, but I am not.
In all honesty, I do not deserve you
and yet you stay but maybe I am
turning into him, someone you just
cannot dare say no to and the person who will take everything from you until you have nothing left except your shame and disgust.

I am nothing special.
I am just a girl in love who is
slowly taking the form of her
abusive step-brother.