should i climb out of this hole
or should i drown in my misery
should i continue being a self loathing sorry excuse for a human being
should i continue to ruin my body with razors and fire
should i **** my lungs up with smoke?
i know what i'll do
i'll balance my productive with my destructive
i will continue to self hate,purge,binge,starve,cut,burn, isolate,and smoke
but i will also be ambitious and work hard
and be successful
and be productive
yes!
i will continue to bathe with my demons
but i wont let them drown me
but didnt everyone who drowned
say that once?