i think i need new words
...a way to describe
    the level of
  dumb-assery
i find myself wallowing in

it's just that
i'm so certain i'm right
yet i know
   i am so
               so
                   so
                       so
                           fantastically wrong
so brilliant and pathetically blinded
   but oh,
               no, really...i am certain
               ...an excellent judge of character
because clearly,
   i am not the *******
    but oh!
    arguing with myself is
           so exhausting
           putting on a world-class act
a soul crushing mind drama
    ...is too much for a person

but admitting to oneself
that one is a *******,
      the likes of which the world has never seen
      is **** near impossible
you must wrap yourself in rightness
you must
           or you might lose your grip completely
you must hold in your mind
possibilities of forgiveness
       degrees of blindness
   levels of dumb-assery
or all hope is lost.

you must look at the blue glass
or the ink on the paper
and light the candle
  ...and listen to the music
because you are you
and you are dumb.