my friends send me pictures of them together
they send them when i'm at my weakest
not when i'm particularly sad
just when i'm the most vulnerable to become sad
i never get them when i'm happy and looking good
never when i'm cute and proud to be me
only at the times when i'm doubting myself
and feeling like my old self again


they don’t think about what theyre doing
they don’t need to

its my problem, not theirs.
i feel ignored if i'm not given full attention



but
have i ever been given full attention