warbled and garbled thoughts

absolute fear and strength staring straight at the mouth of it.

I cant pull a string of pearls together in the right order.

a prayer for each and a shiny pearl for show.

no pearls of wisdom here.

just a gut wrenching confusion

and terrifying wonderment.

how the hell does everyone else get by?

its my way.

the only way I know.

run through the spew keeping eyes open I let it all burn.

it will find me but the answer wont.

i let it fester,

make some stupid evovled gesture an exchange that will only buy ridicule.

its a lonely place

enlightenment,

so bright I wish I could just turn on the dark.