Why?

Why do I have to hang out with this crowd of people?
They are slowing drowning me with bad thoughts and actions.
All of them are fake and I don't know how to say no to them.
Why can't I just let go of them and be with her?

Whenever I push them away,
They come right back.
Begging me to stay saying,
Why would you want to be with her?
She's lonely and pathetic.
She could never be one of us.
Why don't they see that I'm in love and that's never going to change?

Why can't she see that I love her?
I try to show it by humor and kindness.
But she ignores me when I'm not alone.
Why don't we talk like the way I want to?
A couple of hellos in the halls,
Doesn't satisfy me.
She walks with her head down,
Avoiding anyone.
I wish I could change that somehow.
Why is she so beautiful?
I love the way her hair falls as she runs her fingers through it,
How her green eyes sparkle when she laughs her adorable laugh.
I get lost in her emerald eyes and it feels like I am finally at the surface. No longer drowning,
But alive and happy.
Why can't I make her laugh as often as I'd like?
Because all the ***** cling to me and I can't breathe.
I hate them and love her.
Why can't she love me?


But I feel as if someday,
I will find the courage to say,
I love you.


You are the reason I can breathe again...