It's the dark thoughts you have before you go to bed It's the silent tears you suppress every time you hear their name It's the laughter that is only there to cover up the intense dread It's the disappointment of looking at yourself in the mirror It's the fake smile you practice wearing for hours in the morning It's the lonely lunches because you don't have the courage to say hi It's the irritating happy songs that always seem like lies It's the disease the doctors claim to know how to fix It's the endless emotions you deny to your family It's the broken whispers to yourself because no one else is there It's the haunted nightmares that replace rest and steal your sleep It's the cries for help that everyone around you chooses to ignore