We always said we didn’t know what we would do without each other But we did know
We’d only known each other for two years
I wasn’t there when your parents split up and each remarried or when you had to get stitches on your face or watched your first scary movie
And you weren’t there when I smoked my first cigarette or tried to **** myself when I was 13 or when I won that soccer game my freshman year
The last time we had *** we were in a rush because we had school in 37 minutes and so we made it sloppy and fast in your shower and then we drove to school together with wet hair and we laughed
The last time we had *** I got pregnant
This wasn’t one of those scares where you’re two weeks late so you buy a few cheap tests and it’s negative so you stash the rest in the back of your drawer and forget about it
I got pregnant on the first day of June and I never told you
I miscarried on the last day of August and you never even knew how close you came to being a father
We stopped talking and I couldn’t even tell you how I was stunned into silence when I realized I was going to be a mother and then knew I had to keep it a secret
Knew I had to keep our dark haired future to myself
So here it is the end of February
I should have been having the baby this week or next and you NEVER EVEN KNEW
I watch you say how much you love this little 15 year old girl you’ve been dating for six months
I miscarried the day you started dating so tell me that was just a
coincidence
But don't you dare ever tell me you don't know what you'd do without me Well, I guess you wouldn't anymore