i lose everything. i take naps on winding roads above mountains and i even lose my dreams.
sometimes in the shower i pull violently on my face, seeing if i'm real enough, assuming that it will crumble in my hands turn into a brown puddle and drip down the drain.
my mouth feels dry and i feel aching where my shoulder meets my arm and my clavicle is nothing but a stick covered with a man of flesh; my body is making love and layered upon one another in a fiery bed of red.
the odd thing, is i want to smoke and sleep and lose some things in my memory.