what triggers this pain?
Is it the look that you gave me,
or the words from your mouth,
Is it the meaning behind it,
or what I understand?

It has been years
of hiding behind the doors
seeking the truth.
beneath your burst of anger
and your insidious laughter
Do you really meant those phrases?

Stuck inside my mind
playing automatically in silent nights
Is it really just me
that remember
the moments of intense yelling
and fearful gestures?

Do you ever consider
how much it affects
my lonely breaking heart?