Gave Up

I gave up trying to care,
no one ever answered my prayer.
People always ask for advice,
then do the complete opposite,
it makes me so sick, I wanna *****.
Always getting stabbed in the back,
all the ******* is starting to stack.
People say they are your friend,
most of them just play pretend.
Drinking and drugs dull the pain,
but I only have myself to blame.
Every time I think I've turned the corner,
they put up another ******* border.
Nothing I do is ever good enough,
people are always calling my bluff.
Even when I try my best,
every blue moon, I pass the test.
Freedom is just a big fat joke,
so what if I'm ******* broke.
House is always a mess,
I could care less.
Stuck in total darkness,
my body is just a rotting carcass.
Don't care about you,
don't care about me,
just **** me, so I can finally feel free.
I live in a reckless abandon,
is there such a thing as a companion.
Life ***** then you die,
I bet nobody will even cry.
There is no god to pray to,
girls just leave my ***** blue.
I shoot ******, I smoke ****,
soon I will wish for death.
My question has no answer,
I smoke just so I can get cancer.
I'm begging on both my knees,
for someone to take my life please.
Will probably live til I'm a hundred,
chained to this worlds unholy dungeon.