I've never had drugs
Even close to me

But when this sadness
Doesn't seem to leave,
My mind wanders places
Where I could see myself

Taking a drag from that cigarette,
Pumping the liquid through my veins,
Or pressing it to my tongue

Anything,
To take away this pain

Take away this pain
From always being second best
Or being ignored

I would do anything

Anything,
To just be okay.

-e.w.