Ever notice something and sit there awe struck?
For years I sat and cursed my seemingly bad luck.
Why wouldn't anyone stay? Why was I unworthy of?
How come I was alone? Where was my one true love?

People would come and go, I learned to not shed a tear,
Cold hearted- I know, but I guess I outgrew that fear.
I couldn't picture myself genuinely happy with someone,
All I saw was a loner with no one beside them in the long run.

One day, out of the blue, a collage of memories was thrown at me,
Every person that disappeared was remembered, every heartache felt anew.
I came to the horrid realization that the moments I unconsciously suppressed,
Were of *me leaving before I was left.