The happiness is what breaks me. Would I be better off with no memory, Of sun streaked highways and easy smiles That face That I wont forget The heaven in his eyes and long winded echoes of laughter coming from some girl in my body? Would I be better off with no memory And instead Only grey? So when I look back The contrast doesn't hurt The hands I now hold are clammy and the smell of pheromones and filth doesn't fulfill me, like before. Although this life is sweet still the memory of sun streaked highways, when I twirled my fingers in the wind of the open car window, my hair flapping, when I was more than beautiful. Still the memory returns gaping at some girl of long ago still inside of me. Would I better off with no memory so that the clammy hands and clumsy footing wouldn't bring me back to the feeling that there was something greater. The happiness is what breaks me. Would I be better off with no memory? so I could feel nothing or everything without a silver stream clouding my new dream Would I be better off with no memory? So that this moment in front of me is complete For it would be all, All that I would have everΒ Β known.