You don't even know the pain I feel
when I start to question what is real
I know you're the cause
my love for you gnaws
its way, through my brain
and I'm here, alone standing
by myself, with tears of understanding
rolling down my cheeks

Now I know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love,
no longer will I cry
or ask for help from up above
I don't blame you
I blame myself for my insecurities

This time I'm really confused
about what I should do
I have this fear of never being satisfied
I can't find stable happiness,
I've tried and tried
this isn't easy,
I'm the **** of my own joke
I want some affection, this is all i hope

Now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love,
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
and i'll live my life until i die
wondering if i'll ever be satisfied
it's not easy being the **** of your own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope.