Its not that hard to take a life






I wake up and see no mirror
Reflection has never been that kind
My mornings just for her
In the evening I'll make some rhymes
Strong crave for caffeine
Now i 'gotta leave this bed
I try to stand up
But there's heaviness in my head
I realise I'm still hung-over
Man , shouldn't have been that wasted
But he said it was fine Colombian
The best i have ever tasted
That party was out of control
Hit after hit and than some *****
Now i feel so much better
I needed to break loose
The morning newspaper Lies on the table
Housekeeper must have left it there
To get up I'm finally able
Music of sunshine now i can hear clear
'thirteen dead in an accident when Their vehicle went off the cliff'
Said the last tiny column on the newspaper page
'Celebrity releases another *** tape - a hit'
Screamed the head lines at my face
Yeah , humans die all the time
Celebs don't release *** tapes everyday
In the honour of the departed
All the chaps are 'gonna download it today
So much for the news ,
Man i need my coffee now
The pain in my head killing me
I hate this sunshine song
A different feeling begins to take over
No , not so soon , not again
Let go of me you monster
I don't even know your name
I walk to the kitchen
Man i hate this coffee so much
I need something stronger
Lets go in the refrigerator and search
Yes, the old jack ,
this will do
I look in the mirror
"stop screaming , you"
I'll be over soon , you pig
I'm your alter ego
Accumulation of
all the sins you've did
I'm trapped inside my own body
Man i feel like an *******
I hate it when i can't pull the strings
I always want to be in control
Man , I'll die for some coffee
Just one sip and I'll be fine
I'll teach that ******* a lesson
Beat that stupid swine
Forgot he's me ,
Than Maybe just a slap
'gotta meet my doc again
And tell him his pills are crap
Such a fine day it was
For a moment it was normal
My folks they could never understand
Always brushed it off as hormonal
Now they sleep forever in their grave
Police said it was hit and run
But i know better than that
Sometimes I think i was the one
Not me
but my alter-ego
Or is it still me
Man, i don't know
I'm more confused than i was
I thought pills will do their job
But now this monster is out of control
He has no idea when to stop
The bottle of jack is finished now
I'm finally in my senses but feeling down
This bump in the road is just too big
And i know can't turn around now
Years and tears of rehab
And I'm worse than i was
Instead this disease found me
Now i feel so lost
In this chaos
There's not a moment of solitude
World doesn't understands me
Marks me off with a pathetic attitude
Maybe it is for the better
As i put the bullets in my gun
No need for a letter
I don't have anyone
I put it close to my head
Letting go of my last breath
But a smile spreads across my face
And i point it towards the window instead







Its not so hard to take a life when you've nothing to lose..