I love you too much
too much

head is filled with moments
i could and would
have done differently
greeted myself better

but that's the past
not to be confused with the present
I am similar to an
ever-loving-shy-boy
who you know
loves her

but is too scared to do anything
because he doesn't know how
and because he doesn't want to
hurt you

he just wants
to love faithfully
but
hahahah

faithfully.
from a teenager?!
what are we reading here?
science fiction?

but it is true
i **** at telling you
that my heart aches
at your thoughts
and when your name is uttered
tears me up

because i know
i did nothing to help
or did nothing to show my love

I just



let you sit there and cry
shame on me
for not doing anything
for ruining his moment
i cannot do much
to change the past
but i hope
that after you move
or I move

you will find someone better than me
I am not the best
cannot be
never was
I was just a re-incarnation
of my soul
who is very kind to people
and just as protective and shy
lies in my birth sign
Scorpio

Just never wanted to do anything
but love someone wholeheartedly
that's not something that will
happen so I need to let that fantasy go
but its a hard habit to break
when you are already knee deep into it