Searching recklessly for reason. Gasping carelessly for air. Wondering if maybe someone knows you exist. Curious if someone truly cares. Cares more about you, than the pride to say they once were there. Contemplating if they might stay. Like the poker face you always wear. The world spins, and specks fly off. That's what humans seem to be. Time takes only seconds, to make you want to leave. So give yourself a moment here. You might find what it is you lost. If indeed it's broken, try to recollect the happiness you tossed.
A quote I once heard: You don't drown by falling in water, you drown by staying there.