Chained and ignored kept in a white room
Away from the glaring eyes that smile
Locked away in my own gloom
They expect me to be fine
No sharp blades , all i have now are my teeth
I bite once more in a hope it'll start to bleed
I'll buy my own collection of self-harm
Once I'm freed
For the scars are a reminder
Of a time mellowed down and sweet
Thrice a day they feed me
Like i care about hunger anymore
Man , I'm always thirsty
Never been so cold and alone
All i have for distraction
Are a few skeletons and some ghosts
Nightmares for our entertainment
But I'm a terrible host
I feed them nothing but my pain
A dose too strong
They've been acting strange
We can't be friends for long
They no longer sing for me
Don't listen to my songs
Once I'm out of here
I won't bring them along
I draw on these white walls
They think its just hate
But inside those mangled bodies
There's a masterpiece i make
I don't sleep much
But again I'm never awake
I'm all empty now
How much more will they take
My sanity hurts now
No longer can i fake
I'm just a little deranged
Not a killer for gods sake
The ink is empty now
But i still have some blood left
I have so many tears too
And I've never wept
Keep it all on the inside
Whispers my (janitor) nurse
Soon you'll be alright
We'll break that curse
But I've always been on pills , i protest
What are some more 'gonna achieve
You want me to learn and forget
But I'm so far now , i can't be reached
I'm so happy in my own head
You want me to get out
Don't force that needle in me
I'm 'gonna scream and shout
No ones 'gonna hear a rant
I'm not stupid , i know
But i may **** someone
So sometimes i just have to let go
And get it all on the outside
Every word that haunts my soul
I'm cut , scarred and hurt
I'm never 'gonna be whole , i know
I don't claim to be insane
This is how i am , always been
I know they have always been scared
Of things they haven't seen
Maybe my reality is too weird
But they can't take away my dreams
My imagination is my reality
Hallucinations my queen
My world is confined in walls
Whitewashed every day
There's a door but locked
No window to tell night from day
they expect me to wait for the sunrise
Keep an eye at the horizon
Gave me enough hope and faith
Now i just want to shoot down the sun
Break these walls with hate
I want to paint the world black
Give them a glimpse of my hate
a piece of my psychological rehab.