Mary wakes from
her, troubled, uneasy
sleep. She turns and
sees Alice behind her
looking at her. What
are you doing here?
she asks, sitting up,
looking down at the
child. Wanted to be
near you, Alice replies.
You can't come into
my bed, what will
they say if they find
you here? Mary's voice
rises higher than she
meant. They won’t,
Alice says, no one
knows. They'll miss
you, Mary says, look
for you, and if they come,
what then? The child
sits up, rubs her eyes.
I'll hide, she says. Mary
sighs, lays back on the
bed, looks at the ceiling.
The child lies next to her,
head on her thin shoulder.
You can't do this, Alice.
But I have, the child says.
Your bed's lumpy. If they
find you in here, I’ll lose
my job and God knows
what'll happened then.
There is black spider
creeping along the dull
ceiling, slow movements.
We mustn't tell them,
Alice says. She runs a
small finger along
Mary's arm. You can't
stay here, Mary says,
you must go back to
your own bed before
they find you've gone.
Don't you love me any
more? Alice softly asks,
looking sideways at the
maid beside her. Yes,
of course I do, but this
mustn't happen again.
I'll be gone, then who
will you have to love,
now your mother's ill
and locked up? Alice
frowns and looked at
her hands, small, white,
pink. Mother used to
let me into her bed and
cuddle her. Her pink
fingers join and she
makes. I'm not your
mother, Mary says,
I’m just a maid who
wants keep her job.
Alice looks at her.
You said you'd be my
adopted mother. Mary
looks at her biting a lip.
Yes, I did. She looks
away, at the window
where lights begins
to show. All right,
but you must go back
now, before you're
missed. Can I come
another time? Alice
asks, her bright eyes
gazing. Yes, if I say so,
no creeping into my
bed at night unless
I know, Mary says.
Alice nods her head.
Best get back then,
she says. Be careful.
I will. And if I’m seen,
I’ll say I was sleep
walking, Alice says.
You mustn't lie, Mary
says. Should I tell them
the truth then? Alice asks,
smiling, getting down
from the bed. Be careful,
sleep walk just this once.
The child nods, opens the
door and closes with a
click. Mary gets out of
bed, opens the door, looks
along the dim passage.
The child has now gone.
Silence. Cold morning
air. A hard frost maybe.
What if she's seen? What
then? She shuts the door,
pours cold water from a
white jug into a white bowl.
Morning wash. Hands
into the water and throws
into her face. The coldness
wakes her. Far off a bird
sings. What if she's found
out of bed? What a turn up.
Poor kid. Me another mother
Nearby a church bell rings.
1890 AND MARY A MAID WAKES UP TO FIND THE CHILD ALICE IN HER BED. THIS THE 12TH POEM IN THE SERIES OF ALICE.